GF5 - Gym

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

I love to go to gym. I started to like to go to gym since Dec 2017/Jan 2018 coz i was struggling to get better performance in bleep test for another ujian kecergasan after not pass earlier one. let it be unknown for what position it is. kekeke.

masa tu juga, i was committed to follow fitness class in utc with coach pinat. it was my best class ever, coz i didn't find the replacement coach as good and creative as her. but it's okay, now, i am trying to remember the workout session and scrolling my pictures taken listing variety of workout done there.

after quite some time, more than 6 months jugak, so i am starting back my gym routine in this Dec 2019. found new gym nearer to my house and i am thinking either to subscribe to their membership or not. Because another gym spotted to be open soon, which much nearer.

I go for treadmill aje, klau di gym tu. haha. if there's no one, and i feel i wanna play with machine and dumbbell, then i'll do it. i love to introduce weight resistance to my workout.

till then, saja add one entry here to start writing and completing correcting my thesis.


xx,  al

PJ8 - After Silence

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)


Silent for awhile for revamping and reschedule my life. Takde la buat apa sangat pun, just stay relax for awhile, alhamdulillah kali ni, a little shorter duration than before.

what am i doing now? fighting my own negative thinking. it is quite obvious when i observed it. this morning i read a tweet about someone who asked about how to remove belly fat and to run faster in march 2020.

Cut simple sugars instead and do more intervals to lift your running pace.

Fill the gaps with good carbohydrates, don’t overthink, fruits are okay, don’t overeat(cut simple sugars)

— Kyle Kuzma is not an NBA player (@msiarabbitowner) December 17, 2019

so yeah, i like his advice on dont' overthink. didn't know that overthink slows down weight loss.

some might simply said, eh boleh je tahun lepas kau turun berat, pastu kenapa naik?

this is my fun fact: when i follow a regime and it works well, i stop. coz i feel bored. unlesssss, if i continue seeking for new information to improve my regime and understanding about it.

i'm easily bored, often time i have no mood because simply i bored. if i couldn't recognize my real cause, i simply going haywire again.

so i need someone who wanna grow with me, explore something new with me, bring the best out from me, someone creative and positive.

and someone to brainstorm new idea and serasi to be with.

wait, dah kelaut post ni. back on track plsss hahaha.

about losing my weight, i am quite stress, sebab tak turun, 62-63 kg je. adoi huhuuu.

so one of punca is i had a lot of to think. so bila overthink, rasa stress, then mula nak binge eating. bila dah binge eating, berat pun naik, mindless eating jadinya, tak kisah garam gula dalam makanan dah.

so, sekarang ni nak mula dengan to not overthink. buat je, serah pada Dia.

i love fruits, now, i keep on buying buah ciku this week. loveeeee. used to buy jambu batu back then, and i'm gonna semai biji benih buah ciku and buy pokok jambu batu.

tiber i miss my kebun. huhu

next, i just read about difference between wholegrain and wholemeal. sebab nak makan rotiiii plis. hahaha. it's better for me to consume wholegrain bread rather than wholemeal, coz wholemeal still contains some traces of white bread, which contains gluten. since my stomach can't consider gluten yet, so let's make it peace from it.

puasa la kejap dari gluten, duhai perut.

the main challenge is, not roti itself, tapi all kind of gluten related food, cucur, kuih mostly guna tepung gandum, which contain gluten in it and those processed flour contained preservatives :(

tapi takpe, i cuba cover dengan makan buah-buahan and maybe greens.

harini i dah start projek semai biji ciku dan bunga matahari. so more greens to come with all sorts of vegetables.

antaranya: pegaga, sawi, etc.

funny thing today is, i bedal je beli benih sunflower tu, dah bukak pack, eh kuaci. hahahahaha lol serius terlupa mcm mana benih sunflower looks alike.

so tanya kawan, and did some google, haaa eden baru google, pi beli benih dulu, baru gegeh nak google. but i never regret buying it. 

coz from experience, when i spend time reading how to plant this and that and all the tips, i end up not doing anything pun. so kali ni, kasi redah je. 

ok, that's all.

more updates on the sunflower progress, maybe? ;P

lotsa love,

al.

PJ7 - Special Post to Him

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)


Alhamdulillah for another day in blessed Friday.

Today is my little brother's birthday.

Still fresh in mind the moment he was born.
A little boy came to our siblings tribe.

I used to cook for mom during her pantang.
Back then, i was a great cook, if i could say. hahaha
it's so easy peasy to you cook pantang food.

i didn't bath him, since he still a little baby, so my aunty came and help to bath him daily.
it was 2 weeks before big flood in 2015.
at that time, i'm waiting for PMR result.
went to pick up PMR result during the big flood, a bit sad i can't get my kerja kayu KH, since all had been flooded. :( masa ni buat tempat simpan kunci yang ada penutup. siap pasang engsel.
right after getting my slip, rush back to take care of mom n my little brother.


we gave him name Amir Hamzah.
mom wish to give this name since 4 years before his born.
the interval between amir and third sister in 8 years.

we don't expect much, what gender the baby at that time.
since Dr scan and couldn't recognized.
so we just pray so that my mom can deliver safely.

turn out, on this day, 13 years ago, a little boy safely being delivered.
i am so happy, it is such a wonderful moment.
i was home that time, tidying up space for my mom to come back home later.
she went to hospital with my kak sepupu, which also deliver her baby in July that year.


i'm in tears from the start of this post.
i could not describe how much i love my little brother.
such an easy little boy to take care of.

to my dear hamzah,
you will always in my heart.
no matter what.
i love you.
hoping this opportunity of living here, in this dunia, helps us to be a good servants to Allah and a khalifah to our community.
You matter to me.
You are precious to me.


Let's walk hand in hand to be a good servants to Allah and khalifah in this dunya.

May Allah bless you, hamzah.

use your power as a man wisely. be a gentleman.
do good and be good.

all is well, inshaAllah.

PJ6 - Termination

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)


I feel ease to write today, harini saja dah masuk tiga entri untuk blog ni. kekeke

alhamdulillah, harini i dah terminate one of my postpaid number, since i ada dua, pre- n post-paid, so just guna prepaid number je.
adik tu ada la ajak untuk just guna line, cut the prepaid.
almost nak accept, but i baru ingat yang i tak cukup duit, duit yang ada ngam untuk nak bayar bil lama je. so i bayar dan balik.

at some point, i rasa mcm terlalu carefree sangat bila guna unlimited data ni, rasa macam tak reti nak berjimat.
demi nak memupuk sikap nak berjimat tu, i nak guna prepaid je.
supaya reti nak bajet duit.

my money management skill is quite low.


so it's time to polish it.

for this purpose, i also install app Money Mate to my phone, tracking my expenses and income.

bila track income tu kan, i rasa, i ni ada jugak la income tu, kadang orang bagi sebab kesian, hahhaha, ada yang dari part time job, so yeah, alhamdulillah for the income that i get.
cukup la untuk keperluan seharian.

tadi i lunch Baked California Chicken, bought from Vendors Cafe, Bintong.
Alhamdulillah sebab achieve target buat 1 perenggan untuk problem statement and for so many cross the list-to-do.


Next rewards, erm.... i would like to go for home-made salad?
been eye-ing for the recipe lately.
plan and choosing for better way that suits my body needs.


actually kan, lepas tulis in english, aku rasa macam blerghh, even masa tulis tu, mcm, ada ke orang nk paham apa aku taip. tapi aku tulis je la, sambil taip kat google, cari thesaurus ke, ayat catchy yang pernah orang/ movie sebut ke, pastu tulis sini.
so aku takde la reti mana tau. google n tulis je, yang penting apa yang nak luah tu, aku rasa, rasa la kan, hehe sampai la.


nanti aku akan baca jugak balik entri2 ni, maybe ada penambahbaikan, akan ada update section ke kat bawah ni nanti.

so sekarang ni, apa adanya je.






p/s: crave for strawbery pudding tealive pls.



xx, al



setengah jam dengan entri ni saje .hahah ok ciao

GF4 - Gluten

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)



bertemu lagi di siri GF.

hari ini kisah mengenai aku dan gluten.

apoooo tu gluten? gluten ni bukan nutrisi tau. dia terhasil dalam gandum cereal yang merosakkan dinding usus.

ini penerangan dari Dr Hafiz, di group fb ekzema.

last year, i memang betul betul pantang gluten ni, termasuklah pantang sos dan kicap, which is because both items have flour in it. flour ada gluten, so a big no no.

so now, i am rejuvenating my life back, and grow to be better.

semalam spend masa delete a few photos in storage, i didn't do much transformation pun in term of my appearance. cuma boleh rasa sangat sangat mood jadi okay, badan rasa lebih sihat.

gluten ni buat apa kat badan aku? bila aku makan balik gluten ni, early this year, bantai segala jenis sos yang ada, huhu, memang rasa kesan dia. cepat nak marah, mudah terasa, sensitif segala hal la cerita dia. which is total beza daripada masa jaga makan dulu tu.

dan aku ingat lagi sorang ni pernah pesan kat aku, jaga perut. 

bila diteliti balik, yep betul apa dia cakap.  jaga what we eat, even nabi pun pesan, penyakit ni punca mai dari perut. 

shows how important to take care of our perut and food intake kan?

everyone knows, nowadays genetic modification (GMO) process is world widely used. hybrid and bred our foods to get higher yield and gain more profits. usage of pesticide to the plants also affected the safety of our food. there is a company producing pesticide and at the same time produce drugs too! mind blown is it? 

before this, few years back, bila cakap nak diet je, banyak spend beli roti etc, masa tu tak tahu lagi pasal ni semua, tak join group fb tu lagi. sekarang baru tahu, kesan makan roti dan apa yang jadi kat perut sendiri. doc cakap, perut awak bocor ni, sedih weh. diri sendiri yang rosakkan diri sendiri. :'(
so, bila dah tahu nasi ni boleh makan, so i follow the suku-suku separuh style.
d

satu lagi, baru tahu juga cara masak nasi yang betul, supaya glycemix index (GI) dalam nasi tu kurang. GI tu kadar gula dlm makanan tu. i got the info from this:

Ayuh, kita jaga pemakanan kita.

kerana sihat itu jihad.




xx, al.

PJ5 - Tak ada

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)



Pause sekejap dari menulis di sini, sebab rasa huru hara sikit dalam minda.
entah apa yang bercelaru sangat ni.


harini lebih kepada nak rant je


tak dapat duit upah, boleh buat stress, so bila stress mula la eczema nak flare, lepas tu lagi stress sebab kulit mula itchy sana sini.
sudahnya apa aku buat?

aku list down barang nak beli untuk bantu pulih eczema, dengan keadaan tak ada duit tu.

sedih ke tidakk tak dapat upah? well, bayangkan dah drive  total beratus km untuk pi buat kerja, tapi kau tak dapat duit, kau raseeee? aku boleh senyum lagi ke?
Kurang kurang bagi la lima puluh ke kan.

on another side, this incident teach me to value my money, to take good care and good spending later.
sebelum ni, duit ada, berjimba sakan, so bila dah short duit macam ni, baru tahu erti perit, baru tahu penat tu macam mana.
baru faham nak letak macam mana semua benda jadi ni kehendak Allah jua.
baru tahu Allah bagi ujian melalui hamba Dia
baru sedar hidup bertuhan ni macam mana, macam mana nak letak kebergantungan kat Allah semata.
baru reti nak pujuk diri sendiri yang Allah ada, dan semua ni dalam perancangan Allah.

banyakkan baca terjemahan alquran al, lebihkan.
moga Allah terangkan hati kau, al.


urus emosi, stabilkan spiritual dan kuatkan fizikal mu .


inshaAllah all is well.



xx, al.

PJ4 - Year

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)


Year by year passed,
but for me ,it is just some days.

i feels
my life is hanging somewhere
where i feel i dont belong here anymore
why life, why?
im trying to hold my faith well,
holding my tears,
managing my expectations.

tolong! aku penat.

people says ,
alasan je tu tak nak habiskan.
to what extent they thought i didn't want a better life?

i do wish to have a career,
have incomes,
buying my needs,
support parents and sib financially,
spend money for my skin health,
spend money for my running gears,
get a red book and go travel,
having my own home and car,
be with understand partner and have kids.

i do expect to finish my study at 2013,
convo and secure a better job.

imaging how many years i have wasted.
doesn't this mean i feel not belong to be here is invalid?
logically,
who ever think of the years pass,
would simply said how lazy and uncapable i am to finish my task to where everybody else can do it in just 2 years.
but me?
could you feel the intense?
have u ever walk in my shoes?
bringing my fcking intense emotion along and judge.

seriously, i feels so tired af
tired.

i do feels dumb for not to accept any job offers along the study period
some because i do think of pity of my friend who didn't pass the test that we took together for the job,
some because i feels i can finish my study in just few times.

lost. i lost in my expectations and intense emotions

she did said my english is bad, and i took months to heal from her words.
months.
it is just a simple thing for others.
i do tell others about the critics,
and the replies is, just do it, just make the mistakes,
from it we learn.
ye, yess,
i understand that.
but whyyyyyyyy my intense feeling of being critics doesn't want to move away from me?
dear emotions, please go away. i shouted it in my head and heart for uncountable time.

for so long, it goes away. it left my heart and my mind.
but why it took so long ,till i feel paralyzed and can't finish off this thesis task?
damn.

i hustle to get myself back.
get a grip ,back to my reality.
biarlah, dah terlepas konvo '19 ni,
biarlah.
ada la tu, something He want to give me.
i convinced myself.

from this, i learn a lesson.
please practice grounding emotions well, al.
ground it every day,
and keep head high.



just do it, okay? :)
let's prepare for a solo and decent vacay after all the submission okay? :)

love you, al. <3




survivor,
al.

PJ3 - Pujuk diri 1

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)




life is not as it is kan?

come here up side down,

memories bring back , memories bring back

lalu je depan tealive, idk what to feel. need to revisit tealive kot, to neutralize the moment.


sigh
penat nak hadap memory tu.

al, tolong please, jadi matang, be bold to face

and accept whatever ahead.

accept whatever past pun.

coz this is where understanding about qada and qadar should be apply.

all happens for a reason.

Only Allah holds your future, just do what you have to do al.

Work out what necessary and follow the flow with submission to Him.

Dear heart, be calm, ya. :)

You can settle this.

There is better future written for you al.

just keep doing the right thing.

fix what can be fix now
do whatever you can do.

al, you are an adult now and you have full responsibility upon yourself.

be smart, be nice


and last, be optimist.





pray always,
al.

PJ2 - Random

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

Hari hari niat clean eating, tapi sudahnya malam malam camni makan berat jugak. sigh. haiz.
struggle jugak weh camni.


hati, kuat please.

lawanlah segala nafsu makan yang muncul itu. huhu

so far, aku dah mula start creating a routine, what to do, keep myself busy, i try my very best.

aku dapat nampak perubahan juga dari segi cara fikir bila ada routine ni.

dan ianya lebih menyakinkan bila aku baca perkongsian kat twitter mengenai having a habit ni.
now, on my way reading new book - The Power of Habit.

Sikit sikit kita cuba improve diri ya, al.


sekarang ni, rasa bersyukur sangat Allah bagi lagi peluang untuk ubah diri, Allah sedarkan mana yang salah, supaya boleh ubah, supaya balik dalam keadaan bersih bertemu Dia. inshaAllah.

sebenarnya kan, aku ni rasa aku kekurangan vocab, tak kira english ke melayu ke, sama je. so nak x nak , aku perlu lebihkan bacaan ilmiah dan informasi.
and the only way to help my brain store information better is, by doing exercise.
ada kaitan dengan BDNF, will try to write about this. aku tak de la paham sgt pasal ni, tp aku nak cabar diri supaya boleh simplify sesuatu and explain it using my own words. sebab apa tau, sebab aku rasa pemikiran aku kompleks sampai la aku rasa diri aku ni adhd.huhu
banyak jugak faktor yang aku rasa diri aku mcm tu, tu yang ubah dari segi pemakanan ni. dan apa sebab dengan pemakanan ni, nanti akan cuba aku kait dan ulas dalam entri eating.
aku tak reti nak sampaikan idea dan buah fikiran. dengan kata lain, otak aku serabut, semua nak keluar satu masa.
memandangkan aku rasa mcm tu, itu yang aku cabar diri buat blog post dan cuba luahkan, walau aku rasa kelaut je text aku, mcm xde isi , dan kalau ada isi pun, isi tu tak teratur.

bila exercise ni, my heart pumped, and i love it, and i feel my brain feeling fresh too. alhamdulillah.

so, hari hari pujuk diri sendiri untuk buat je. as long as it is good for me, i buat je.
jadi, sekarang fokus pada pemakanan dan senaman. rutin lain masih diteruskan macam biasa, cuma lebih fokus pada dua ni.



ini entri random.


adios,al.

GF3 - Seafood

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

Me (A): Doktor, Saya kena pantang seafood ka? Tak boleh nak makan seafood ka doc?

Doc: Siapa cakap tak boleh? Boleh saja, makan saja. yang penting makan real food, no processed food.

A: *mata bersinar* eh boleh ka doc? Means saya boleh makan real and fresh food. fresh food means? seafood yang baru naik ka?

D: Yep, real and fresh food.

A: Oh yaaaa. sebab depa preserve seafood tu dulu sebelum pasarkan. ok ok faham.



I was so stress with my food, bayangkan orang lain boleh makan sedap sedap seafood; ketam , udang kerang, siput, sotong, while me watching from far je. sedih kan.

and after i heard doc said so, i made a plan, ajak mom and dad beli seafood fresh kat LKIM, tempat ikan ikan segar baru naik. Kat sana, i saw few uncles put something from a bottle to the fresh fishes dalam tank besar tu. Wait, what is it? oh yaaaaaa, it's formaldehyde la kan, to preserve the freshness of fish before reaching the customers.

now, another puzzle found.

we bought a few type of fishes and some squid and crab yang memang betul betul baru naik, put some ice and back home. I ate those squid and crab and alhamdulillah, no rashes, no itchy, no side effects after eating! i observed it in a week. nothing, and now i know, if i crave to eat seafood, i need to buy them fresh! Weehuuuuu *drumroll*

Before this, i'm quite stress about my food intake. after this incident, i am so happy and understand how eating fresh and real food can heal my skin.



i am thinking to share about eating in my next entry. see ya!






be real and fresh,
al




p/s: idk, sentence structures untuk entry ni rasa macam ke laut je. so nanti je la i edit bagi ok sikit hahaha. k ciao.

GF2 - Instagram?

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)


Alhamdulillah, another day of clean eating journey.
Badan dah mula rasa itchy here and there, maybe sebab terrrr makan sambal belacan kot tadi. sigh.

It's okay, lepas ni avoid kay.

and to day, alhamdulillah i managed to get 2.64 km brisk walking.
I read, the book said, brisk walking is better than leisure walk. So i try try je la.

Actually, this email and blog created together with an Instagram (ig) account! Hehe

It was created last year and I follow no one except my first ig account.
Since i found my first ig account is too toxic for me, i only login to the account once a week, just to know some updates.
I uploaded all my progress in my new account, yada yada not so much, banyak quotes, videos which helps me ALOT in my healing process.

All my rantings about my skin, my current condition were all in the ig story (igs).


I dislike to block anyone in my first account, hence i made a move and be at a new place.

I create my own circle, new interests on meal prep, fitness and running.

Each photo has their own explanation though it has no caption.


Em, but, I'm not ready to share with anyone yet. too much to be filtered out kot. hehe

Some might ask, why blog, not ig kan? later later, insyaAllah. not gonna move there yet.
i just love and enjoy typing in my blog.



Till then


p/s: i'm so happy today, coz i get to calculate new values for my data. Thanksss, mate!





Keep going,
al.

PJ1 - Met him

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

I. Meet. Him.

Omg!!!!

The only person I tryna avoid, but i suddenly met him at restaurant this afternoon.

I don't know how to describe my feeling at the moment.

At first, I saw my sv taking rice for her cucu, and i approached her while viewing inside the restaurant.

Omg!!! I said to my sv, do you invite him to have lunch with us?

But, she didn't hear that and I just said, I'm waiting for the others first.

I made a move, to neighbouring shop, be calm and took my deep breath.

'What would he gonna ask me? What if here? What if there?'

So much of questions in my head and I tried my very best to be calm while waiting.
I am so so so nervous!

I walk with other students and approach the table and smile. while my hand, awkwardly making a Hi sign to him.
He replied, with Hi too.

and I moved to the meja lauk and get my food. this time, i dont care at all my sv got her food or not, i was too nervous.

after that, i sit, we sit diagonally, so he asked, awat ambik sikit sangat lauk. hmmm, where am i now?
i replied, just finish previva. now correcting my thesis.
and he just said ''ooo'' and entertained my sv's cucu.

i macam cacing kepanasannnnnn.
i just ate my food, without tunggu my sv! hahah nervousssssss.

later, i just realized that i didnt show my food to the counter to get the price, and i line up for that while he stand up and talk with other students at different tables.

elok je nak duduk and he stand up and left us. my sv asked, why not join us for lunch, but he refused.



***

to the person,
i am so so sorry for not meeting your expectation towards me.
hoping that you can attend my convo
i am not giving up because of you
i know and understand how high your hope is
i am still standing here, with her amanat too
'finish this. insyaAllah'
i still remember, how she hold my hand and said that
months later, she left me.
but i never forget it.
i do blog about this in my previous blog, years ago.
i feel so lost when she's not here
i miss her

i know i'm late
but i know i can finish this.
i do my very best ya.
pray for me always.




i'm sorry,
al

GF1 - First Move

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

Alhamdulillah, done donate blood for this year on 19/11/19. what a nice date, huh? heheh

often i failed to get donated, either my hb or my bp is low.
this time, i ate meat and doing aerobic exercise before the day, hence that help kot kan.
alhamdulillah.

since ada 3 bulan lagi for next donation, so i would like to reduce my weight, get toned body and get fit as well as maintain weight to <55 kg. hew hew. let's do this!

so, i start with calorie deficit last monday 18/11, though it might not seems so deficit, since i ate burger before bed. sigh.
but, i pujuk myself, i exercised 2 times, so hopefully, the burning calories mechanism helped me during my sleep. ah gitu. haha

on 19/11, i try to reduce my rice intake and take a lot of protein. another burger in and half balang jeruk. so sedap ok jeruk tu, till i didnt realize i finish up to half! hahaha
follow exercise from body project yt channel, i chose beginner level video je, but its so damn hard! hahaa. moving to the last, i move slower, and keep on marching je. love this channel since the coach is sooo encouraging, just do it, even you just marching, katanya.

dan blog ni pun saje je nak hidupkan balik, aci taip je la hahah. x kuasa nak taip cecantik lagi. buat je la kan, nanti nanti perkemaskan lagi.

pendekatan kali ni lebih menyeluruh, lebih holistic.
tapi tak research banyak lagi, just buat je guna setakat mana yang tahu dan ada.
appreciate what we have, kan?

since my skin is dry, eczema some more, so i choose to eat healthy.
back to no sauces here and there. no sugar and salt.
sigh, it's bit tricky since it is sooooo hard to do it.
i get used to eat all those back in this one year.
sedikit kuciwa la sebab pi makan balik segala triggering food tu.

but it's okay.
we learned from mistakes anyway.
there will be more mistakes to be done soon, in this journey of reduce weight and get fit kan?
so layan je la, belajar belajar.

so yeah, pagi ni breakfast dengan nasi putih dan telur dadar je, fried with min amount of oil.
belum sempat stock up vege yet.

will up my entries more later, hahah ada ke yang nak baca ni?
haha



cheers, adios.

Thanks Allah for 28 years of living

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

Alhamdulillah.

I feel so grateful and great right now.

Fighting and hustling to keep calm for the moment, others are still not yet done, but it's okay.

I am certain, I am achieving and fulfilling them soon.

:)

Alhamdulillah, 28 years of living, full of sweet and sour.
Well, that's life.

Why wish to have a non-obstacles life where the definition of life itself full of obstacles?

Allah tested with his tests, direct and indirectly thru humans and circumstances.

No other, rather than increasing my imaan and my level in Jannah.


For quick update, I still in the mode of correcting my thesis after previva.

Need to be quick with this and graduate next year, inshaAllah.
#convo2020

Not yet convo, but I feels too emotional for this. :')

It's okay, life must go on.

let's settle one by one,
keep calm,
keep focus on track,
be better than yesterday,
be grateful, always.

love, al.


p/s: well, i'm not yet 29, it's a few more hours reaching 29 since i was born at 11:46pm. ehek.
^^,

Cross my line

A lot of people are crossing my line now.

It is such a new experience to me to handle this situation.
Rejected some due to the feeling not match and not resonates to my need.
Their existence are helping me to know myself even better.
What kind of people i would like to mingle around, what kind of conversation that i would likely to have and what kind of people i had to banned them from my life.

Introduction v.2

Assalamualaikum~ :)

G'day everyone!

It's been so long from my last entry. Hehe. Alhamdulillah everything went well during my recovery. I had done closure with the person involved with trauma that i had been handling for all these while.

Closure is any interaction, information, or practice that allows a person to feel that a traumatic, upsetting, or confusing life event has been resolved. The term has its origins in Gestalt psychology, but it is more commonly used to refer to the final resolution to a conflict or problem. (Source: www.goodtherapy.org)

A bit of my reason of why I choose to make this closure.

1. I want to know the exact reason 
2. I want to get clear it from my memory
3. I want to live my life more meaningful
4. This is my life
5. I am in charge of my life now
6. I am an adult
7. I want to seek for Allah's redha

Again, here is my space to update my current progress on anything about my life, in better words and perspective. It would be from journey of weight loss, toned body, spiritual practices, self-care, handling emotions and career.

I can't wait to update my progress here!

Stay tune.



xx