PJ1 - Met him

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

I. Meet. Him.

Omg!!!!

The only person I tryna avoid, but i suddenly met him at restaurant this afternoon.

I don't know how to describe my feeling at the moment.

At first, I saw my sv taking rice for her cucu, and i approached her while viewing inside the restaurant.

Omg!!! I said to my sv, do you invite him to have lunch with us?

But, she didn't hear that and I just said, I'm waiting for the others first.

I made a move, to neighbouring shop, be calm and took my deep breath.

'What would he gonna ask me? What if here? What if there?'

So much of questions in my head and I tried my very best to be calm while waiting.
I am so so so nervous!

I walk with other students and approach the table and smile. while my hand, awkwardly making a Hi sign to him.
He replied, with Hi too.

and I moved to the meja lauk and get my food. this time, i dont care at all my sv got her food or not, i was too nervous.

after that, i sit, we sit diagonally, so he asked, awat ambik sikit sangat lauk. hmmm, where am i now?
i replied, just finish previva. now correcting my thesis.
and he just said ''ooo'' and entertained my sv's cucu.

i macam cacing kepanasannnnnn.
i just ate my food, without tunggu my sv! hahah nervousssssss.

later, i just realized that i didnt show my food to the counter to get the price, and i line up for that while he stand up and talk with other students at different tables.

elok je nak duduk and he stand up and left us. my sv asked, why not join us for lunch, but he refused.



***

to the person,
i am so so sorry for not meeting your expectation towards me.
hoping that you can attend my convo
i am not giving up because of you
i know and understand how high your hope is
i am still standing here, with her amanat too
'finish this. insyaAllah'
i still remember, how she hold my hand and said that
months later, she left me.
but i never forget it.
i do blog about this in my previous blog, years ago.
i feel so lost when she's not here
i miss her

i know i'm late
but i know i can finish this.
i do my very best ya.
pray for me always.




i'm sorry,
al