PJ10 - After Silence 2

Assalamualaikum and good day lovelies!~ :)

Holla holaaaaa

all is well, hopefully.

it's been quite awhile not writing here.
some ups and down, january seems so longgggg tome, but february just appear short and yes, we're approaching end of it.
how many effective i am in using my time? i would say it is about 50% effective?
alhamdulillah for some good feelings along the way.
though the feeling good is not sustained throughout a day, sebab ada je masa aku rasa macam ehhh tersasar ni, emosi kelaut, tetiba minda rasa nak rest kejap, tetiba semua hal nak settle waktu tu jugak which is dalam masa yang sama ada keraguan to do it.
geram tau takkkk bila kena handle semua ni.

sebab, aku tahu, i can handle it, no matter what.
but bila innerside mcm chaos, celaru, keliru, secara tak langsung aku pilih untuk freeze.

the only reason i freeze is coz it seems i was too busy with small little petty issues.
udah ler isu isu tu tak membantu menjana pendapatan aku pun. merugikan lagi ada la.sheesh.

lepas tu rasa macam semua habit aku kelaut je, walhal ok je. semua buat je, quran, makna, jog, tidur, eft, self affirmation.

hm. i am certain all these sebab food la. sebab food je yang belum go to strict mode.
to get back to habit to prepare my food, be mindful with what i ate and etc.
rasa macam diri sendiri banyak akal dan drama je.

mmmm maybe i dah kurang betul membaca. so i nak start this habit back. membaca buku, a physical book.
i am expert in reading socmed, reading in telegram channel, semua tu fine alhamdulillah.
so nak add dengan membaca physical book pulak.

i neeed ot take good care of what i am thinking at present. so that i think only good matters and think of any perspective when i think of some limiting, negative thought.


so yes, ada tiga perkara yang aku perlu titikberatkan sekarang, since others are fine with me.

according to my previous post, about my berat badan. alhamdulillah, today i reached 59.6 kg. weehuuuu. alhamdulillah. little bit more for 55kg target!

and i managed to get pace 9 for my jogging. alhamdulillah!
ok  sangat, i am so impress with myself.

i ada channel telegram, did it long ago, still thinking what to feed in.

till then. wish me well in my life.
wish my reader doing well in your everyday's life too!


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